  jogging in a nightmare i had a nightmare of a weekend. you know. and this morning while jogging my legs felt about as heavy as my heart did. i thought i was going to quit after 20 minutes but.... forged on somehow. (it's called knowing that i have all the energy i need from having breakfast and enough sleep and literally no excuse to not complete it. ) amazingly when i was overtaking this girl on Lap 14, my legs started to feel lighter, like i was not longer lumbering as loudly as the 6-foot guy who has an excuse to lumber because he is about 100 pounds heavier than me, maybe. i felt like i had legs belonging to someone else and kept up with this for a lap or two and then it inevitably when away.... i got scared because i didn't feel like jogging. and that made me wonder how much of my jogging is because i want to have a nice body for someone.
and if someone's gone, why don't i just go into sedentary hiding and just starve myself to stay thin? well, i reasoned that i will find love again (almost a certainty) and because i do it (mostly? ) to be healthier. it's also scary the current bruises and pains i've been getting. if i weren't jogging, i'd be pain-free.
ironic, isn't it? to overcome this rut i'm having, my goal is to (slowly) increase my speed, maybe shave a minute or two off a run (and get to a run at some point!). my big fat greek wedding finally saw the movie over the weekend and liked it a lot . my favourite part that hit me the most: his proposal. i don't know, it was so run-of-the-mill place, like when you're older, all that matters is that there is a proposal, finding someone you can spend the life with and not some glitzy locale like a fancy restaurant or spectacular nature setting.
it is a bit idealistic movie, but it was really, truly good and fun. on that note, i checked out my big fat greek life for a few minutes on sunday. i thought i would give it five minutes but it turned out that i didn't even need so long to assess the new show. it makes you wonder if most of the original cast is also in the sitcom (including the lead actress).
it was terrible and become normal. the jokes were (instantly to me) bad and it seems sad that now they have to pause after ever joke (apparently every line is funny) for some contrived audience laughter....! well, at least it's good to know that i won't be wasting my time on that show! urlLink read more.... 
