  mixed reactions to my new hair m.: "i like your hair crimped that way. " (upon seeing me for the first time over break) a.: "wynne's here and she's did her hair funny. " (telling a friend of his over the phone) a.: "did you put something in your hair to make it do that? " (the second time he saw me with non-straight hair) when it comes time for (chinese) new year, apparently i have to straighten my hair because village girls (what we are disguising as) won't have curly hair! .... fortunately i don't have really blond hair... one girl has to dye her hair black for the dance....!
to get an idea of the dance, there might be a copy of the video at urlLink this ftp site where the password is "vietns". the file is called multi.mpg (because it was the video for the dance for the multicultural festival). issues & dreams i had some pretty freaked-out dreams yesterday and i think i also know why.... in brief, i dreamed that i was at the club again, in a similar situation to the one on saturday night at the dome: i told the guy from hk that i would drop by and chat with him and it is implied that i will see him at his table with lots of his friend who are also from hk.
but i didn't for similar reasons as last night. but two of my friends (guys, neither are chinese) approached girls from that group and one of my friends actually got a ride home with one of them. so i just know that my decision is gnawing at me. whether i appeared as a snob or too-canadian or whatever, i don't know.
i use the fact that they were drinking and my (undoubtably) unfair impression of the group as an excuse to make myself sound more morally upright. the thing is, i've been raised most similarily to those people because my parents were also raised in hong kong. still not the same as them (obviously) because they were raised in hong kong and my parents try to retain the good qualities they have from their upbringing. obviously i'm most similar to fellow canadian-born chinese people (whom i find to be short in supply around here for some reason). and i can't possibly find myself to be culturally similar to the chinese people who abound in my program who are from mainland china. if i find even hong kong-born people to be quite different from canadian-born people. .... so why do i keep on trying? or caring? urlLink read more.... 
