  After I had my son I had a brief bout with post-partum depression. I was mostly depressed because I went from being 13olbs. Before getting prego, to an astonishing, and sickening 280lbs. I felt like a freak, and I also was having a hard time adjusting to all the changes in my life. I mean I moved, graduated highschool, married, and birthed a child via c-section in a relatively brief period of time I was very depressed. I had received a scholarship from my nite school to go to the Detroit College of Business and getting prego and having a kid tossed that out the window.
I felt crapy. Like a massive failure. This worsened after my husband had gotten laid off and we were forced to move in with my in-laws at the end of our lease. Seth was 7 mo. I was well on my way to loing my weight, but moving into his moms house sent me into a further depression of hopelessness that I eventually began to cure with alchol, drugs and parties at night when my husband returned from his temp job which did not even earn half of what he was making before, I had a job at a dollar store making just a little less than what he was. Then they sent me a credit card in the mail. I found that shopping was very theraputic for depression. I had gotten 12 credit cards within a month and had them all maxed within 3 months and lost my job within a month of that.
I was guilty of affairs, which yes, i have since came clean about. I was doing whatever it took to feel good and hang on to it. I was angry, and I unfortunately missed a lot of firsts for my son. but at the time I was so caught up in trying to hold onto my quickly vanishing youth, I did not forsee the consequences of my actions. I regret so much now. My son is such an awesome human being. My daughter too. They rock. I am glad that period passed, but as you will learn it returned after my daughters birth. 
