  Congrats to Mattie's nephew . . . it's all good. I'm not feeling like a very nice person today. I thought church would help but it didn't, and right now all I want is Lee's phone number so I can call him and tell him my granma is not dead. Him and Cody are the only people on this Earth that would ever wait with me like they did today. Lee refused to leave me until my ride came, my granma left me up at the school because she didn't see me when she came to get me. I called Mom, and she brought me home. Lee rode by and saw me and him and Cody came to chill with me, and they stayed for a long time . . .
I was freaking out, I thought my granma was dead .
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anyway I looked at him and I said, "why aren't you gone yet?? " and he said he couldn't leave me alone to go completely crazy. I cried, after he left. Nobody's ever .
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it's like Eric, like I said before, him and Cody I can feel in my heart, I know that sounds odd, but they don't just care, they'd take a bullet for me.
And I can use them as a fasod when I need to, even though it's wrong. They're there when you need them, they always have been, I just didn't notice how much we've been through. You can't take anything for granted anymore! I'm so afraid they'll go away. 
