  I'm sorry I put your link on my page, Mattie, Matt doesn't read the blog (thank God, he'd be pissed after last night. SOMETHING I WROTE LATE LAST NIGHT - I just talked to Joey. It's funny to me how I always come across him when Matt pisses me off.
He read the blog, and I cried (so I'm crying a lot today, big deal) when I saw what he had to say .
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"so you like to be held? I always held you. " Joey did always hold me. We always say/it would be good to go away someday/but there was nothing there to make things change/if it's the same for you I just won't/ -Matchbox 20. And I just told Matt what he said, and the problem with Matt is he hides reactions well, especially on the phone. THEN SHE LOOKED AT ME WITH THOSE BIG BROWN EYES AND SAID YOU AIN'T SEEN NOTHIN YET! BBBBBBABY YOU JUST AIN'T SEE NNNNOTHIN YET!!!!! I shouldn't be able to be so happy about making someone angry, but Matt hates Joey right about now. And I am happy that he's seeing red right now. I'm seein red/don't think you'll have to see my face again/don't have much time for sympathy/but it never happened to me/you're feelin blue now/I thinkyou bit off more than you could chew/and now it's time to make a choice, and all I want to hear is your voice -Unwritten Law You can't be straight up with people anymore. I told Matt I still have feelings for Joey and that Joey still has feelings for me and the boy is so afraid now that I'll go fuck Joey while he's gone. Can't trust a sister! It took Chip telling me that even though I wasn't available that it was okay that Joey and me still had feelings.
Geezum, and he was right. It's simple, why is Matt making it so complicated? I love him, I tell him this about ten million times a day, and he does ditto .
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so he needs to just calm the fuck down. I want to go to Warped Tour this year, but I don't know if I will be able to.
Rob Zombie is going to be here the day after I leave town, which majorly blows. Then I am missing the premier of Goldmember because I am going out of town. Which means I can't go with the huge group of people that are going over at Matt's house. Actually, you know what? Last time I went out of town it killed me being away from Matt. But this time I am thinking I need to get away from him for a while. See what it's like to think about things besides him. I say this because I think that's what he wants me to do. I feel bad because I feel like I smother him, so if he wants it I am going to give the boy his space.
Make muchos sense? I'm out of line .
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I know, but I'm in a bad mood so I can be. ANYWAY - thought it was fair to post it even thought that was so 5 minutes ago. I'm going to post this and then write more. 
