  And the only reason I edited it where I did is because my family reads this now and then, at least my uncle does, and like I've told you, you're the only one who knows my shit. But you taught me something. Want to hear it? You can't trust anyone, ever. You can't ever think that you met someone you can be honest with. You just can't. You get that close and then people start to find your imperfections, and they have a power to magnify them because they have all of you - and your trust. Never trust anyone but yourself. Never wish that anyone would let you be the special person they trusted. It all goes away in the end. It all goes to hell. 
