  i remember last summer... after ian left me, i swore to myself that im going to get back on boys and im going to make one of them cry. ang sama noh!? right now, im sooooooooooooo confused with my feelings. i like him, but... am i in love with him? edward says that im not "ready" yet, again to be in a relationship. bat ganun!?
bat laging parang laro sakin ang ganito??? shit!!! im not ready for commitments. i dont want anyone to follow me around. i dont want anyone to boss around me. do i really want to have a bf!?
sa totoo lang, i value friendship more than love. ang friends nandiyan na sila dati pa kahit hindi ka marunong mag-suklay, kahit hindi ka makikay, kahit ang bobo bobo mo. im so fucking distressed right now. i cant even look at him straight in the eye... EVERYTHING IS A LIE!!! NILOLOKO KO LANG SARILI KO! screw me.
i know. i am such a bitch. what has he done to me??? nothing. wala siyang ginawa kundi mahalin ako, i-spoil at i-understand ako. makes me even more guilty, eh!?
guilty na ako!!! G UILTY!!! MASAMA AKONG TAO PAGDATING SA PAG-IBIG. I AM SO UNFAIR. I AM SO... WHATEVER!!!!!!!!
LAHAT NA!!! i am so tired of pretending. YES, IM THE GREAT PRETENDER... (woooohoohoooo!!! ) hehehehe. ano ba yan!!!
=P you know what made me EVEN more guilty yesterday... the fact that he said that I AM... take note: I AM HIS LIFE. damn. 
