  I now know why they don't make red eyeliner. It is unattractive. I'm sporting some natural red eyeliner, courtesy of a crying binge that lasted for about 12 hours. I'm a selfish person and don't want him to go. He's better than minimum wage, than doing bitch work a few days a week.
But he's wanted this for a long time and how could I not be a little excited for him? Because I am excited. But then the excitement disapates as I realize that I will be alone with no job and no place to live when all I really want in the whole world is to eat dinner with him. This weekend will be the first of many lonely Saturdays and Sundays. 
