  ok so today was incredibly hectic -  give it to the last remaining days of work for it finally to get interesting = anyway,  since i didnt * confirm*  with a friend of my dads to get together tonite he made other plans (
ouch)  -  nuthin like bein brushed off by a 40 yr old man to make ya feel insignificant.  i wonder what his other plans are. maybe he doesnt have any and just wants to seem like he does. yeah thats it (
saving my ego a lil here)  so yeah,  til i kno who reads this i dont really wanna post some stuff -  mainly if i write sumthin bad abt ya and u read it here and then go torch my car -  ive got noone to blame but myself.  i do think we'll use made up names if it comes to that -
 i dunno -  havent really decided.  or maybe ill just not write negative stuff abt ppl -  that works too.  speakin of:  school is lookin waay up.
 i got to see many faces ive missed this summer on mon and tues -  esp my good friend tim who im secretly gonna marry ( well,  after his perfect gf somehow disappears * wink*  ive missed him a lot more than i thought -
 hes completely awesome to talk to ( and the change in look is a plus -  verrry nice timmy -  it suits him real well)  and hopefully sometime this yr we'll get around to those guitar lessons we've been talkin abt since frosh yr ( he plays amazingly well -
 i dont)  ileana is back -  after a horrendous scare of her not returning to school ( bad illie)  but we're all happy campers again in the apartment of death eric,  rob,
 and ethan all live less than half a block away -  who knew?  and dereks place is pretty close -  very nice.  jenna lives across the street,  and yeti's gonna live in my parking spot!
 ok,  so the last ones a lie,  but thats a crazy amount of friends to all live w/ in 500 ft of me dontcha think?  ive paid off my credit cards ( correction:
 my mom did and now i get to pay her for the rest of my existence)  -  at least this way im not creating more debt with damn finance charges and what not.  gotta love mommy!  =  note:
 i had to sign a contract telling her the payments that im gonna make,  on what dates,  and how much each will be -  my moms not like yours " sure honey pay me when u can.  nope.
 mine straps you to a chair and makes you sign ur life away b4 u get up.  shes been doin it since i can remember.  how many of u had to sign and date a piece of paper sayin when your room was to be cleaned by?  thats right.  none.  cept me and my bro -
 well even not that -  technically me.  i used to say that she was a tyrant,  now i just think she did whatever the hell she could to get me to cooperate -  i was quite the kid ill tell ya that.  talked my way outta a lot of stuff -
 only way to get me to stick to sumthin was to make me sign it i guess -  tho dont think that stopped me -  i remember signing funny and then telling her later that i didnt have to abide by the contract cuz i think she forged my signature cuz it doesnt look like mine.  after that episode she paid careful attention to how i signed.  just be thankful that none of u had me as your child -  i dunno how my mom got thru it some days.
but hey -  now im a well- adjusted,  likable,  21- yr old who has her whole life looming in front of her.
 looming is a great word for that.  its totally how i feel.  the more i wanna get away from IL and the whole mid- western area,  the more things ( mainly ppl)
 tend to pop up that make me wanna stay.  these few kno who they are,  and if i do go away u will be greatly missed ( as well as emailed a whole bunch)  =  cool thing tho:
 if i get into grad school at u of i,  stayin is lookin a whole lot better =  new ppl to hang with,  a new roomie possibly ( tim,  the more i think abt it the more i think itd be hella fun -
 hey and id quit smokin for ya,  thats a plus on all accounts)  and some old friends id never have to say goodbye to ( paul and ruthie fall into this category in a major way -  dont worry,  so do u em!
 at least until the next yr when i go to portfolio school.  oh i think i got another job too -  so now ill have two jobs again at school -  one at FAR and the other at the DI -  ill be workin in the ad production dept designing ads and layouts and other stuff -  it pays next to nothing but at least it gives me some real design experience besides my just messin around with stuff.
 we'll see how that goes considerin the last job i had at the DI ( shudder*  but this is a diff dept so diff experience,  right?  right.  i think im abt to head out -
 too much workin for today.  check u kidz lata 
