  alright, so snow came and got me all off track with everything, which is fine. so now i am getting my license tomorrow, which i am so excited about, i am just trying to figure out where will i go first?
today during behind the wheel while we were driving around beside having everyone look at us b/c of the huge cheese-wedge-sign on top of the car; we saw an accident, complete with paramedics and all.
my instructure started talking about it, all i could think about was the fact that it could happen any time, and it doesn't even have to be b/c of me. it is fricken scary. it's also another step in growing up, which is just about as scary. i am getting letters from different collages, telling me why i should apply to their school. i don't even want to think about it. it just leads to me thinking about what i am going to do after college...and AHHH!
just makes me want to scream, curl up into a ball and stay in my moms arms forever. at the same time i want to experiance all that life has to offer me, i want to go out into the world and live my life as best as i can, but it is just so scary and coming so fast. it's so true what they say, 'when your young, you want to be older. when your old you want to be younger.
' well i when i was little i couldn't wait for the day i would have my license, it really is a big turning point in ones life, at least mine. when i was little time used to go by so slowly. all i wanted was to be a cool 16 year old who could drive around, go to parties and have a million friends. now i am 16 and i feel like the same little kid, just with longer legs. when i was younger i guess i thought some amazing transformation would take place when you get to be in your teens, but really you are the same person, just with a few more complex thoughts.
and i can't for the life of me figure out how i got from there to here in what seems like so little time. well, thats enough rambling about not wanting to grow up. i guess i better get used to the idea. just hope after school activities aren't cancelled tomorrow..otherwise i dunno when i will get my license.... 
