  There comes a time where thinking too much is not enough and where feeling too much is not enough.
It is the borderline effect, a moment in time, a fraction of life that is indescribable but holds so much meaning that it is perfectly imprinted in your being, not just in the metaphorical or emotional sense, but literally it is imprinted in your very fiber. Your energy has changed drastically because of it, not necessarily making it deviate from its already chosen path, but rather it may accelerate the way on that path. These very moments are when we are weakest, like the soft shell crab waiting patiently and in suspense for its new shell to become strong.
It is a time when we push overload and create space, room for more to be taken on without causing a breakdown of the very fragile system. This is a time to choose paths and to evaluate what suffering, what life you are choosing, and wether what you wish for is worth that suffering, wether it is valuable. Is it worth suffering and devoting yourself to it? You must ask the question and you must think it through. It is not wrong to choose to be drastic and not play it safe, it is not wrong to choose the headstrong way, nor is it wrong to choose the passive and accepting way. Each one will come with some sort of suffering, but which one is more worth it? This moment does not become a question of want or need, it is a question of your life, of our entirety, what will you regret?
What will you cherish? What is worth suffering for? What is worth in general? These are the questions that will flood you and you may choose to ignore them, and like every decision in your life, it will cause suffering. At this point in time, is it more valuable that they be ignored? You will have to choose something. Answer the questions and be at peace with your decision. 
