  dear you, i was looking for you tonight. you werent around, and i did not know what to do. waiting, repeating, searching and certainly longing. i need someone to convince me things can be ok. i really needed someone, anyone to be there. but i secretly hoped it was you. no one came. i drown sorrows. i close those thoughts out of my head. i self medicate, and still you are not here and things are not ok. i was afraid i wanted to be alone forever.
i thought that was how it was just going to be. then i met you. we spoke. it was then i knew i couldnt be alone. i am now afraid that i cannot be eternally independent. i could break. no one else makes me dodge popups and write rambling stoney love mainfestos. you are states away. the distance is making the heart grow fonder... and weaker. a place to rest my head and breathe, that is what i think i need -to be whole again.
whole in mind, whole in spirit. right now something in me is broken, missing, dying. and it affects every bit of my being. i think you could be the one to fix it, someday. and if not, you are the one who can give me solace and comfort. hop a place. get some gas and hit the road. greyhound, raft, pony, scooter.... whatever it takes.
get out here. find me. no regrets, i give that which i receive, and i will give and give. i need you. no more tears. amazingly i feel i know you in my heart. there is a space there shaped like you. waiting. tired eyes, battered prizefighter head angled with eyes at the floor, awkward nervous smile, smooth keen awareness.... these are the keys to my soul. i have a hand extended out to you and ask you to come. .... love me* 
