  1. I have a lot to say. It is 11:00pm. I will be up all night thanks to the nap I took late this afternoon. Work, fuck it. It has thrown me totally off.
2. A asked me to go see the Trio with him. Aww. 3. Lisa and I have a lot in common. More than I ever would have thought.
Did I mention that? 4. I do not really want to go home to SC. I do, however, want to see a few friends and "be there" for one specidically. ;) 5. He says, she says: J vs K She says:� � :) i feel ya.
He says:� � Hehe. He says:� � No you don't. He says:� � That's the problem. He says:� � ;) She says:� � haha maybe this is true. 6. More people need to be that straight with me.
Hint Hint, A. 7. Scu "is it bad to value freindships a little more than love? " The answer is as follows. My thoughts of the day. It is certainly not wrong to value friendship �over love.... those are the people who tend to stick around despite whatever bullshit comes up, anyway.
Friendship weathers better than love, in my �clouded experience. Your friends are there to listen to you talk about how fucked up love is. There are more guarantees in friendships. Emotions dont play such a hard part. Friends take things for face value, compared to the complications and confusion and double and triple and secret meanings and assumptions and misunderstandings in love. �Thats why all of the great "love relationships" I know are between people who started as best friends.
Its hard to explain, but its just different. 8. How right am I though? 9. His girl is upset my his "history" with women. He doesnt know how to make this better.
This is one of the reasons I dont like most girls. I say to him "While i can see how she could be weirded out by whatever may have gone on with you in the past, your "history" has nothing to do with where things are right now. Regardless of what you have or have not done with whomever, �there is nothing you (or she) can do to change it. But atleast in my case I dont feel I can hold anything anyone I have ever been with has done against them because I was not a part of their life, in a sense, when these things occurred. very ambiguous, i know. �she just needs to realize that.
Asking her to be ok with it is one thing, but asking her to accept there is nothing you can do about it now is another. If the tables were turned and it was you saying these things to her something tells me it would be very different. " Is that rude? Because if she doesnt accept my friend for who he is, they do not belong together. So I would feel with any good friend of mine. 10.
I feel bad for him though. He isnt happy. Much like me, although I try to hide it. Im sorry things arnt going that great with him... but things will work out I suppose. They always do. I hear that what doesnt kill us only makes us stronger, or some shit like that.
Im waiting patiently to see if this is true. 11. The longer I wait for things to just work out for me the more impatient I become. The more impatient I become the more jaded I become. The more jaded I become the less I put myself out there. The less I put myself out there, the less open I am to change.
The less open I am the longer I have to wait. Its a cycle I cannot kick, I tell ya. I just hope to God I dont turn into one of those people who are only stable and grounded when things are fucked up and going wrong.... approaching everything as fucking damage control. But I dont see that happening soon. Please. 12.
Speaking of masturbation, this morning at work a man was crouched in our little porn dvd booth at work for an hour uhhh "shopping. " I was afraid to interrupt, so i just let him do his thing. Great story. Scu you may be right with the whole "animal or human acting �funny equals masturbating" thing.� 12. Cant stop thinking about poor J. I wish I were there. He needs to make out a little I think.
That would not only cheer him up, but it would make him feel much better about everything. ;) awwwww.................... He says "He sits at home listening to Bright Eyes and Outkast by himself.....wondering what it's like to kiss a grrl, as it's been so long that he's forgotten and he wishes he had some cookies. " Poor guy. That town sucks the life out of sensitive kids. I can tell you all about it.
13. Tomorrow is my day off. I probably have to talk to my mom. And should call Boyle and Leah. And maybe Jus. 14.
I am not OK with turning 23. 15. G wants D, L, and I to come work for him. He called and formally asked Dawn.Thats it. No J or B or T. Sad. And no one from the CM store.
Should I be happy about that, considering I have been ther 2 months? :) Yes. 16. I hope he had a good first day at his new job.. A. 17. I work with him a few days this week :) (Uhhhh Oh.......) muahahaha. 
