his list *katies soon to come ilike making people feel uncomfortable ilike thinking ilike it when i cant think ilike pitying people who hate ilike trying to find each persons
innate good feature(s) ilike pretending that i am humble ilike feeling wanted ilike feeling sexy ilike manipulating peoples beliefs ilike the glitter of 'awareness' in eyes ilike tru-ful moments ilike a sense of family(that i am not related to) ilike pretending to be hard ass ilike getting reactions out of people just because i can ilike setting people up to
make fun of me so they feel clever ilike exposing ignorance ilike infatuation ilike feeling that i am in love ilike believing in a soul mate ilike patronizing people for my personal amusement ilike brutal honesty ilike the moment of realizing bullshit from truth ilike being in the moment of the sublime ilike noticing artistic moments in life ilike the
aesthetics of nature ilike envying naturally beautiful people ilike imagining not being influenced by my sex drive ilike alone momentsi like wasting time in contemplation ilike making up theories about pointless things ilike imagining what death is like ilike extraperceptual experiences ilike rediscovering myself ilike reflecting on my maturity level ilike estimating others maturity ilike to judge people and feel bad about it ilike trying to remember my childhood ilike making people laugh ilike to cry for lost loved ones ilike to cry in the presence of those i love
the most ilike it when you zone out while driving and the time passes quickly ilike the anguish of silence on early dates ilike suddenly turning off the radio to see what the passengers in the car sayand do ilike being jaded about cerrtain things ilike dreams i like waking abruptly after nightmares ilike remembering odd bits of dreams ilike it when i confuse dreams and reality ilike the release that masturbation used to bring ilike the way my brain functions under the influence ilike doing something just for the
sake of doing it ilike people thinking im spontaneous ilike people not really understanding me ilike it when people try and tell me who i am ilike futile attempts to get to know people. ilike the mandatory 'get to know you' time that later you can't recall ilike being emotionally moved by books and movies ilike the presence of a
greater moral vision in art ilike experiencing thrills just for the rush ilike it when my cat seems to know my mood ilike trying to help my freinds through genuine problems ilike how everyone whos name i dont remember happens to remember mine ilike embracing emotions in order to let them go ilike it when my brain quits functioning when i want it to ilike the state of mind that sleep deprivation brings i likeimagining the world as 'aware' ilike picking on homophobia ilike creating something new ilike how the
smile on a childs face can make you forget all your worries ilike believing in somethign while believing in nothing ilike the original moment of true change or innovation ilike using music for mood regulation ilike making people feel my music ilike subtleness ilike clearly defined decisions ilike matching people to the animals they most resemble ilike to believe i am different and know it is a lie ilike the agony of small talk ilike the adrenaline rush that near physically harmful incidents bring ilike the dilemna of the double
standard ilike wanting to sleep next to someone but at the same time wanting to sleepalone ilike like theraputic and self-divining activities like this ilike integrity ilike genuine people ilike things that make me use my imagination ilike catching contradictions ilike psychoanalyzing people, including myself ilike living in the moment ilike the aura of a winter night ilike well done
satire and sarcasm ilike doubt ilike it when someone needs me ilike being pursued ilike falling for someone i will never talk to ilike contradicting myself ilike the problems inherent in using language to describe ideals ilike realizing goals ilike believing the quieter you become the more you can hear ilike people who don't fit stereotypes ilike doing things, rationalizing that i only live once ilike meeting people who change the way i see myself or what i do ilike how some things defy reason ilike the thought that everything is relative
