  654694677 I wonder sometimes what it is that she thinks about me. She never just says she misses me. She only says it after I do. So I think I just wont say it until she does from now on. I wonder how I am in her life.
I have such a hard time trying to figure out her moods. Sometimes she seems really really into me and interested and others she just seems so ambivalent. I go back and forth in my head about this all the time and I feel like it is starting to take over. I just start to feel so lost and I cant think. I don't know what she is going to tell me this weekend. I don't know how I will react to it all. I am so scared right now to know and it is eating me up inside.
I should have said it. I think she could feel it that day on the curb. But I didn't know how she would react. I didn't know if she would say it back or even if she feels that way about me. I just couldn't imagine her driving away after that. I'm starting to freak out again. This is hard. 
