  1. some say thinking about death- or the sudden loss of someone you never imagined the world without- is cathartic. i dont think so. all if does is make me question my falliblle nature and mental health. 2. i have met some great people here.
3. sadly i wont see many of them soon. 4. im too introspective. my brain keeps me awake nights scared to death of who i am, who i was, who i will be, who people think i am, where things are going, others well being, my own well being, humanity, etc etc etc. some say this mindstate is that of hypersensitivity. maybe so. maybe it does lead to ulcers and manic depression like J said. but feeling this is better than feeling nothing at all. 
