  today was my first day of school. i was so so nervous. i think it went well though. i think all the kids had a good time and i dont know, i think it will be okay. maybe even great. last night i was really nervous and this morning i was really really nervous. i felt the same way when i was in third grade and i was holding a sleepover at my house. i just walked around all day trying to plan things for the other girls to do. fearing so desperately that they would be bored and want to go home. so it went well. and VA was really fun and joe and i didnt fight or anything the whole time so thats really great. and so at this moment life is looking okay. 
