  "i'm one step away from being an alcoholic, and 13 steps away from being a recovering alcoholic" me so certainly has been a while. shits alright i suppose. i got stuff on my mind again though. its not easy thinking about lots of stuff at once, but hell. one day it'll all be figured out, then i'll pick up my guitar and play, just like earlier today, and later today, and tomorrow, and everyday. i'm tryin to find a gutarist, to jam so that it sounds like more than just bass and drums when we jam. next week, thats my goal, find the gutarist. i'm trying to do my calm but i just dont want to right now. so this weekend is gonna blow, i have to work every night, but i am going to see a movie on saturday after noon, i might go to big fish, i dunno yet. i'm very bored, i wanna go on a trip somewhere, like vancuver or vegas maybe. but i'm going to both of them next year so i'll wait. 
