  today was kind of fun. mike and i went to the 'village square' which is a mall based outside. very neat. it is a shame that it was so hot that my shirt was becoming soaked and we ran to the car to get in the A/C. *sigh*. capone got some training today. he now can catch a ball/toy in his mouth when you throw it up in the air. neat eh? i guess the 'training' he got today was to just sit the fuck down and wait for me to throw the ball.
he learned it very quickly, i was really impressed. i still can not believe how fucking smart this dog is. after that mike decided he was going to do some home work so i took off to sarah's house to pick her up, brought her back here - where mike was waiting for us. we then proceeded to go to nick's house and drink, tell jokes, and make fun of each other all night :) it was... fun. came back dropped mike off, then took sarah home, then came back here... (where i sit this moment). i'm beginning to feel like the world is slowing down for me, opposed to a month or two ago i felt as if it was moving to fast for me to even plant my feet to attempt to catch up. i feel like i'm slowing down time.. or i'm speeding up with it, and i'm beginning to catch up with everything about me.
is there still some things i want to change? of course there is - the only difference now is, i feel like i can find the time to change them, do them, and make them more meaningful rather than do things... and procrastinate until the last minute. (blah i'm rambling). what i'm really trying to say is... i'm becoming more focused ... i'm becoming more ... myself again.. with each passing day it gets easier and easier.
today on the way home from sarah's house i had all the windows down in my car and the music turned off, i was just doing some deep thinking. wisdom is something that comes with age, and time, mistakes, failures. now if i was as wise as i am now.. months ago - i would have never had to deal with the situation that i've had to deal with, but i wasn't as wise then - in fact i was nieve. through this i've become more wise, and less nieve. i will never gamble "myself" for the hopes and dreams of anothers happiness. never again. so i'm becoming more wise - and as i was driving tonight... thats one positive thing i can say about all of this.
i've become more wise.. and since you can't learn wisdom, and you can't teach wisdom, its just ... experince... it feels good to know that i'm growing up... because.. wisdom is key to happiness.. because if your not wise.. happiness is easy to loose. -goodnight. ps. new picture of capone... more on my pictures page. 
