  ....I'm so stupid. I'm too soft. I say sorry to everyone all the time but it has become a terrible habit now. I've become more clay that human. No free will, no opinion, no nothing. Anybody could just mold me to do anything they want. Why am i so soft? Say something wrong and i start to weep. why? Once a tear leaks out, i cant stop the waterworks. Quote Erene, " Your eyeballs are going to melt soon because you've cleaned them too much with salt water. " How can i become more tough? i dont want to be a shell with a heart of stone but if anyone knows my weakness they could do anything. i can never say no 
