  ok so last night we were a jimmys and i got 2 drunk for my own good. it was bad. i did some things i didnt wanna do i dont remember alot of things. i think i blackout or something. cuz i remember laying down in a bed and the next thing i no im in a car like no joke. i remember pretty well what happened before that and im trying to forget but from the time between in the bed and to the car i dont remember.
all i have to say is that im gonna be fucked cuz gina is PISSED at me. even tho she hasnt said anything to me about it yet. shes pissed and me tim and gina need to sit down and have a lil talk ANYWAY i feel so gross and so dirty. i feel like ive een raped. ANYWAY well yea so teddie got way to drunk. i puked and cried. it was so bad. and i still feel like shit. well i havent talked to kevin in like forever and i think thats good. haha cassie told me that last night all i talked about was talking to kevin. and tim told me the whole time we were talknig it was about kevin.
wow i really need to stop drinking. ha well today im not doing anything because A)  Gina is at graduation and cassie is somewhere else. i dont no where and B)  gina is mad at me and i kinda dont wanna be around her cuz im scared. hmm today is kevins fight,  i wanted to go,  but i cant. i hope he doesnt die well thats all for right now 
