  hmm well im at the police station its almost 1: 00 and i dont no where my aunt is. maybe shes out arresting people?  hmm i dont no ANYWAY i didnt go out last night and i probably wont go out tonight. i have to have dinner with the grandparents.
well i thought more about the kevin situation before going to bed and i was expecting myself to break down in tears and write him a long email telling him im so sorry for the things i didnt do blah blah blah and then i said to myself. teddie ur not crying,  teddie ur not upset'' and then i laughed haha i laugh everytime i think about it. haha so that means i really am over it and im not just pretending to be happy,  i think finally for once in my life im actually happy,
 like really happy,  i can sit down and say " I,  Teddie Hawkins am happy with my lemonade.  man i feel so good well i talked to tyler last night and that made me sad. it really did i wanted to reach out and give him a hug and cry for him,  but i didnt cuz i couldnt,  well thats it peace 
