fuck im having such a bad day i had usa south try outs today fuck that yea well i made the team i guess i dunno there making a naples team but its like all the fucking rejects that have never played before so im like ok this is nice i mean fucking freshman r playing for fort myers and im stuck on the damn naples team hmm maybe i am that bad i dunno? but it doesnt make any sense i mean i made 14As last year and made
JV this year yet theres people that played 14Cs and didnt even make the freshman team that r playing on the better team does that make sense but u no what i dont think i even care i just feel like shit cuz i fuckin worked my ass off for like 2 years and now this is like a kick
in the face but whatever i mean i made a team and its in naples so i can play but still im not happy and to top it all off i get my damn period when i get home and now i feel all fat and worthless fuck i hate my life the grandparents r pissing me off and all i wanna do is go in my room and cry o wait i already am fuck i feel like nobody cares about me see look this is what happens i get down on myself for something dumb and then i get even more upset and start beating myseld up over something even dumber fuck im really stupid i dunno i just need to talk to someone but nope i dont think i have anyone i could actually talk to without feeling stupid but i dunno i dont no whats wrong with me but now im sitting here ready to kill someone in tears over something dumb but its really pissing me off but i dunno o well im suppose to
go by danes house tonight and i dont no shannas number and i need to call her damn it and tonys not on and i need to talk to him to but o well i think im gonna go and curl up on my bed and cry for a good hour then im gonna take a shower and go to sleep that sounds nice yea
