im pissed off majorly im sick of everyone being mad at me because im not the perfect lil girl they want me to be...im so sorry i dont fuckin call memebers of my damn family everyday maybe its because i dont like u and dont want to talk to u i cant help that u no its like when my family comes down to visit all i hear is o teddie can never be like that she can never be like this look shes 2 fat nobody wants her blahblahblah well u no what im fuckin better than that shit do they really expect me to sit there and talk to them when all they talk about is how they are so disappointed i quit volleyball and they talk about how i need to loose weight its like look at ur damn self please i dont sit there and tell u what u should be so leave me alone they dont even no who i am anymore and thats not because i dont call them every week its because they
dont listen they dont no what my talents r anymore they just think i dont have talents they look at me like im scum and they are embrassed to be related to me o im so fuckin sorry personally i think i am a good person i dont do anything wrong and i am trying to make thigns happen just because im not ms volleyball super star and i dont play sports and i dont do the things they used to do doesnt mean im a horrible person i dont
understand y they have the need to ALWAYS put me down ALWAYS its like they get sick pleasure out of making me upset i never thought ur family out of everyone was suppose to make u feel like ur worth NOTHING at all they make me feel like everything i do isnt good enough im trying i really am but
what else do they want me to do? ha im probably gonna be like the family memeber that doesnt get a call for the reunion or something haha i wont like be invited to christmas dinners or thanksgiving..thats so sad it makes me feel horrible that my family would disown me if they had a chance it really hurts and the thing is i dont understand what i did...maybe its what i dont do..but what am i suppose to do then?
