yea well chicago fuckin sucks i dont think i want to come back here anymore i mean i look forward to this this is like what i live for and
right now it sucks and i fuckin hate it i mean if i could i would get on a plane right now and leave but the only reason y im not is cuz kevins here and im even getting bored with that i havent gone out since saturday and nobody even bothers to call i mean it seem slike nobody wants me around i mean cassie ditched monday and yesterday and i have a feeling its gonna happen agian today she says shes gonna call and pick me up but
she goes out with christina instead and it fuckin sucks and it seems like the only time gina calls is when she has a problems that she needs me to fix and i fuckin hate it like i would so go home right now cuz thats how bad i feel everytime i come here i cause everyone else problems and i dont think its worth it anymore i just wanan go away and never come back really im serious everywhere i go it seems like nothing is good i fuckin hate mylife and right now i wish i didnt have one i come here to see people and they fuckin shit all over me and i wish i could actually say something and tell people how i feel but i cant so u no when gina and cass actually call and we actually go out i will put a big
smile on my face and act as if NOTHING is wrong and they will never no cuz thats the way i am i dont want to cuz problems but it seems i always do or people always blame them on me cuz theres no one else so today im probably gonna sit at home cuz my so called "friends" are not gonna call and forget about me so i might as well sit here and die cuz nobodys gonna no anyway so whats the difference if i live or die
because right now it seems like nobody cares so i guess i might as well die today everyone comes to me when there life is so bad and so horrible and they dont even seem to wonder how bad mine can get and then shit on me to make it worse u no fuck that im fuckin done im done with everything im giving up yes im a quitter teddie hawkins is giving up on life u no theres gonna be people tthat r gonna read this and be like o look shes crying out for attention shes feeling sorry for herself but u guys have no fuckin idea cuz u dont ask everyone thinks im so fuckin happy all the time and im not i fuckin hate life and i want to end it
